I finished my book! Again. For the third time. Kinda.
The big revision plan I had for Isto is done (woot!), but as I reread from the beginning to see if all the changes are cohesive, it’s instigated a few more changes. No problem. I can deal with that. But then a member of my critique group expressed his dissatisfaction with two of my early chapters and, well, now I’m changing another POV.
I’m not frustrated by this, though. In fact, this other POV I’m changing is my oldest writing in this book. He’s the POV I pantsed like 8 years ago during NaNoWriMo, and though his latter half changed during the great timeline rewrite of 2017 and changed again during the tension realization of 2019, I’ve hung onto the first handful of chapters, unwilling to rewrite everything for this character.
I’ve taken a deep breath, stepped back, and now I’m ready to let them go. I’ve already got a plan of attack. And I congratulate myself on the forethought not to add chapter numbers just yet, in anticipation of rearranging events.
I’ve been swamped these past few weeks at work, scrambling to get a project done that went live on Monday. Now I’ve been fighting fires and fixing things. Hopefully today it’ll calm to the point where only minimal maintenance is needed. It hasn’t left me a whole lot of time to work on writing. In fact, it might be a while before I make return blog visits, for which I apologize.
IWSG Question of the Month – Are you a risk-taker when writing? Do you try something radically different in style/POV/etc. or add controversial topics to your work?
Not in the spirit of the question, no, but I’ve come to realize these past few years that I’ve committed writing sins I didn’t know I committed until after the fact, and they are so ingrained in the story that I’m leaving them. Characters were made. Characters were killed. And though I know I’m contributing to the greater problem, I’m still going to finish my series keeping the problematic choices intact. Once I finish, I will choose either not to publish, or publish, but not advertise/market it.
And I’m okay with that. My goals were never to succeed as a full-time author, but to finish the series before I die.
Here’s a picture of a few character heads, the first 4 being the main POVs of Isto, the last being a POV from the previous book. I’ve been hanging onto them for a while, not yet posted to social media or anything.
Have you ever made writing decisions that you now feel bad about? What do you do about them?